_ijustgotlost?

its those dayse when you shouldn't get up at all, i mean it is pointless, i didn't worth it at all
the only productive thing that i did was realize that i just at the same spot that i was like 2 years ago. i stuck there, i run away, but everytime i came back to that position, where i don't know
where i'm standing and if should continue with this, i mean really, what it is the point, everyone who i spent some bit of care or time, left me. i spent more than 4 years tooking care of people that i nearly heard from them once in a wild, and that is too much to say. why i can receive the same treat as i try to give. i'm desperate to talk more seroius with somebody, and i just got pointless conversation that leave me in this same karma position, is this really worth it?, am i doing the right thing. should i keep wasting my time in things that at this exactly moment do not care.
why things have to be so hard for me, and i know that's cliché but god knows i'm right
i didn't have the path built as others... an this one is draining all my energy.
i was thinking about leaving, i mean not now but just run away and start from scratch. i sounds marvelous, but it is so sad at the same time, cause i have this uncuestionable truth that if i leave this place almost noone is going to feel it, i was out for 6 months and just a few knew it!
this out of my family for sure, they are with me. sorth of...
but i'm rather sure that the most frustrating thing or feeling of all this. is to feel that even when i know this things, i going to go to bed, and tomorrow everything is going to be alright over and over again. i'm a tiny rock of this beach of sand. if i'm or not. doesn't erase the beach.

lost? (acustic ver) - coldplay

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