_shiver

its so tough for me to put my deep thoughts into words, more in a space that can be read it by other people, its even harder, so i'm going to use this song, cause it represents in some way most of the things that are going through me right now, let's see:

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cos you say you see straight through me, don't you?

on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver?
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you

And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver?
Don't you shiver?
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…

And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me

i got shiver, that its what is going throw my blood, the shaking the nervous, the things at my stomach, its all i thing its what send me to bed very late in the night after talk with you, its what wakes me up in the morning, so i can try to catch you online or rather move everything to see you. cause right now, nothing else matters, i just want to set this up, finish all over here and run over there and spend every second that i have with you, looking at you, laughting with you, enjoing and making our stuff, like this that we have every night. cause i'm not going to move anywhere, i will be here ... right here waiting for you, waiting so you can see how much i need you and how much i can give you if let me, and take this risk with me. i'm ready, ready as i never been before, i want to start all from scrach wiith you by my side. cause if you are with me, all make sense for me. i don't care to sacrifice my stuff for you, y preffer that instead of living this sorth of life that i have now. in two weeks you broke more walls that anyone in my 22 years, you reach some place inside of me that noone knows and i'm scared of that, cause i don't want to get hurt again. and i wish that someday, you could save me and take care of me as i want to give to you that.
a chance, i'm living and moving my life around this single bit and remote chance, that you choose to take this risk with me, if this is black jack... i'm all in.
so now just wish me luck!

[ in the waiting line - Zero7]

_thsc